A lot has changed in my life since last January. I had a break up, a death in my family and I met an amazing girl. First off. I had a break up that happened on New Years Eve of 2010. That's all that I have to say about that. Then 2011 rolled around. On the 21st of May, I lost my hero and my mentor. My Grandfather died on that day. It hit me hard like a freight train. My grandfather was everything to me. On the 23rd of April I made an emergency trip up to Billings Montana to be with him as he was having surgery. It took him awhile to get come to from being knocked out. Once he came to he didn't know where he was and had no idea where he was. He couldn't remember who was in the room with him. I walked in to see how he was doing. He looked over at me and began to cry. He was so happy that I made it to be with him. The couple days that I was there he was doing great. I then left to come back to Nebraska. Then the next month I got a phone call from my mom at 6:30 in the morning says that my grandfather had passed away. I was devastated. I knew that the day would come but it came to quickly. I then left on the 25th of May I arrived in Glasgow Montana to be with family as we prepare to bury my grandfather.
It was nice to be around family during this time of need. On the 28th we buried my hero. It was the toughest thing I have ever gone through. It was even harder than going through my divorce. I have never cried so much in my whole life. Through the time up to the middle of October was a trying time for me. I was struggling with my faith. I finally realized that I couldn't deal with this pain any longer so I turned it over to God. I let Him take control. During that time I prayed also that he would bring someone into my life that would like me for who i am. Then in the middle of October a girl by the name of Katie Templin from Lexington Kentucky tweeted into my life. (corny I know ha ha)
The way that we met was through Twitter. I couldn't be any happier. She is amazing and wonderful. We started talking through Twitter, then it was Facebook, then we exchanged numbers and began texting each other. Then on the 2nd of November I asked her out. Since then we haven't stopped talking. It is pretty trying at times because she lives so far away and we want to be close to each other but Skype has helped wonders. On the 24th of February I will be leaving on a jet plane to Lexington to meet her for the first time. It is going to be awesome. I am glad that I get to spend 10 days with her. 7 days in Lexington and 3 days in Chicago. I thank God for bringing her into my life. She is so wonderful. I love her so very much. Everyday that we talk we grow closer and closer to each other. We learn more and more about each other everyday.
Now it is 2012. I have a feeling that this year is going to be GREAT. I cant wait to see what God has in store for me and Katie and all of my friends. Thanks for reading. Till we blog again. Peace Out
Thomas James Marshall
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Thursday, January 5, 2012
The Fear Of God
It has been awhile since my last post. So this has been on my mind all day. I have been listening to one of my favorite bands lately. The bands name is Showbread. I have been a fan since they were formed. Their album that I have been listening to called The Fear of God. It is one of my favorite albums that they have made. I dont know if what i am going to say about this album but I am going to let this song title do the talking. The Song is called The Fear Of God. It is very powerful. Every time I listen to it I choke up. Here are the lyrics.
The Fear Of God
Dear God, why should I think You're good in a world that's falling apart?
The flags and lies, picket signs raised high, the endless enveloping dark
Now here we sit, drifting further from You, two thousand years on their way out
Now here I am, as I've grown to know You, still haunted by my fears and my doubts
Just a man, just a vapor, just a waste of your space
All the good that I've done is in spite of myself
I'm not sure that I can look You in Your face when I finally set foot in Your kingdom
Dear God, what went wrong? We hate ourselves, we hate our brother
We so desperately want to find our way, and all You say is "love one another"
http://www.6lyrics.com/the_fear_of_god-lyrics-showbread.aspx
And little babies starve to death, emaciated, out of breath
Unfaithful wives make vows untrue, husbands beat them black and blue
Junkies vomit in the streets, writhing, twitching in their skin
Sell themselves to die some more, rotting from the outside in
Parents steal the innocence from their children, scared and shaking
Drink away the guilt at night, brings quiet to the endless aching
And evil men boast on TV, swimming in a sea of wealth
While misery beds honest men, and lonely people kill themselves
And everyone cries out Your name, as the world is raped by selfishness
And no one knows the way to heaven, we only know the emptiness
And the storm it rages in my heart, and the endless empty roars in my ears
My world is coming all apart, I've no strength left to dry my tears
And through it all I hear Your voice, breaking my heart, breaking my will
Calms the storm inside my soul as You whisper "peace, be still..."
You place Your hands around my heart, You quiet the emptiness in me
A king that kneels, a God made a servant, You set the captives free
You wait for me, a wretch of a man, no record of wrongs do You keep
You are comfort when I mourn, You are strength when I am weak
Jesus Christ, the king of kings
Though we ache, though we cry, never break, never die
We sing of His great love again and again
And His love reigns forever, and forevermore
Forever and ever, Amen
The Fear Of God
Dear God, why should I think You're good in a world that's falling apart?
The flags and lies, picket signs raised high, the endless enveloping dark
Now here we sit, drifting further from You, two thousand years on their way out
Now here I am, as I've grown to know You, still haunted by my fears and my doubts
Just a man, just a vapor, just a waste of your space
All the good that I've done is in spite of myself
I'm not sure that I can look You in Your face when I finally set foot in Your kingdom
Dear God, what went wrong? We hate ourselves, we hate our brother
We so desperately want to find our way, and all You say is "love one another"
http://www.6lyrics.com/the_fear_of_god-lyrics-showbread.aspx
And little babies starve to death, emaciated, out of breath
Unfaithful wives make vows untrue, husbands beat them black and blue
Junkies vomit in the streets, writhing, twitching in their skin
Sell themselves to die some more, rotting from the outside in
Parents steal the innocence from their children, scared and shaking
Drink away the guilt at night, brings quiet to the endless aching
And evil men boast on TV, swimming in a sea of wealth
While misery beds honest men, and lonely people kill themselves
And everyone cries out Your name, as the world is raped by selfishness
And no one knows the way to heaven, we only know the emptiness
And the storm it rages in my heart, and the endless empty roars in my ears
My world is coming all apart, I've no strength left to dry my tears
And through it all I hear Your voice, breaking my heart, breaking my will
Calms the storm inside my soul as You whisper "peace, be still..."
You place Your hands around my heart, You quiet the emptiness in me
A king that kneels, a God made a servant, You set the captives free
You wait for me, a wretch of a man, no record of wrongs do You keep
You are comfort when I mourn, You are strength when I am weak
Jesus Christ, the king of kings
Though we ache, though we cry, never break, never die
We sing of His great love again and again
And His love reigns forever, and forevermore
Forever and ever, Amen
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